How I'm Feeling Update

Happy start of the week lovelies.

I'll put this on my Tumblr in case you don't follow me on Blogger. I'm currently focusing on my mental health which has been no joke. It's been a total shitshow and it's been a struggle. I'm getting by of course. Taking my time facing each day slow. 

We all deal with our problems regarding mental health differently.

I'm trying to deal with mine in my own way. It's no lie I am and have struggled with mental health. Everything that's been going on has exhausted me. Another thing that taken its toll on me. I'm still struggling but battling through. It's a constant never ending circle. 

I'm trying to be happier, got no problem at all with that. But when all your demons are constantly trying to fuck with your head it all goes out the window. It really messes everything up and there's nothing you can do. And that is heartwrenching to me for sure.

Healing for me this time is definitely working. It's not as bad as you first may think, it needs time to start and time to finish. You can't rush healing. You can't rush things when it comes to mental health. 

But anyway, I thought I would give you guys an update. I'm feeling okay, I have my off days and good days. I cry. I do feel like screaming most days when it all gets too much. Sometimes it does get too much to cope with. It sucks but as long as you focus on yourself and focus on the way you want to heal then that's fine, absolutely fine. There's no rush, like I said when you're trying to heal from anything bad. I've been there let me tell you. If you have followed me for years you would know about my struggling, and that's okay. It's okay to admit life is hard. I try to be honest and open about everything in my life, everything. I'm all about being happy and spreading positivity to anyone I meet. 

I try to stay positive, I really do but I can't deal with that being happy or even unhappy, if that even makes sense. I admire people that bring positive vibes to life, it really makes me smile. I always try to do that. Life's too short to bring negative things to people and make everything miserable. And no one wants to do that. 

Get rid of everyone toxic in your life who you have no time for any more. 

Remove people and anything that makes you sad or angry. 

Do things that make you happy. 

Do more of what makes you happy, you will feel so much better for it. 

Take time and make it work for you. 

We may never know what it feels like to truly be happy while battling mental health or whatever is going on in our lives but just know that it can and will get better. I hope my words what I've written in this post brings some comfort in some way. Healing for me brings me comfort and I hope it will help you because if I can do it and keep focusing on myself, then anything is possible. 

As I mentioned before, in this post, it can and does get better. I want you guys to know that I am always here whenever you need me or someone to talk to. I'm here and I love you and I'll be here forever x.